Sometimes I truly wonder about my decision to become a mother.
- When I was growing up I felt like it was expected that I would become a mom and just like everyone had before me.
However, in hindsight I wonder if this was the right decision for the life that I hoped to lead. I always envisioned that I would be a jet-setting professional woman with an exciting lifestyle. I thought that I would have a large, modern house that was sparsely decorated and impeccably clean at all times. I foresaw amazing indoor air quality control, a weekly maid service, and fresh flowers on the table. In reality, I got a chaotic family who is constantly creating messes that I can’t clean up fast enough. It seems like no matter what I do something is going wrong. Each day I wake up, adjust the central HVAC system to match the outdoor climate and weather predictions for the day, and get to work as a busy mom. I have a 1 year old baby who absolutely hates the heating and cooling system, no matter what I do. Every morning when the AC system kicks into gear, she starts screaming her lungs out. If the cooling system blows any ice cold air on her, she absolutely loses her mind. In the winter, things aren’t better when we’re using the central heating system. My daughter is highly opposed to any sort of warm, heated air passing out of our vents. She completely freaks out if she wakes up from a nap and the forced air furnace is operating. I spend my whole day battling the HVAC system and my daughter’s weird phobias.